there's a reason why you can't fight that feeling any longer...

and it's not love, i'm telling you. why on earth am I doing something I shouldn't be doing? Anyway, as much as I want to hate the world for all the sadness, frustrations, sufferings, occasional loneliness and all the craziness it brings, I still can't deny the fact that it also gives me all the best feelings in the world. It gives you the feeling of magic and happiness, that heart-stopping feeling of first loves, of what-ifs and what-nots. Aside from the feeling of unfailing laughtrips with family and friends, you also experience the pure love every single moment brings, every single day of this life. 

I want to feel inspired, to feel wonderful, to feel fine, but most of all, I want to feel perfect even though in reality, I'm just a simple, shallow and crazy hopeless-romantic waiting for her chance to experience all the magical feelings they say are true in fairy tale books... I want to be able to experience in my heart, mind and soul the very feeling Claire Danes' character, Yvaine felt in the movie, Stardust....

I could go on and on, but the time won't allow me anymore to... so to end this pointless entry, I would like to share this again and again and again. I've shared this on my previous blog and I will share it here to you again... my favorite line from one of my most favorite movies of all time....

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine. "

-Yvaine, Stardust, 2007