WHITE CHRISTMAS

I've been hearing this song version of Taylor Swift around. I heard it at the mall earlier, in the car twice this weekend and I recently learned the chords to it and now I'm totally LSS-ed! The chords pretty much goes around G-Am-C-D. It's so easy to play, I love it! It probably is the easiest Taylor Swift song I learned, even easier than Love story. 


Well anyway, what's new this 17th of December 2010? What's new is that Hubert Webb has been set free after 15 years of imprisonment, what's new is that I have bought a faded pair of jeans (which looked a lot like my mom's pants way, way, way, way back during her late 20's), what's new is that I'll be celebrating my last ever PASKUHAN as a college student of University of Santo Tomas later today! 


It's 1:38 am. I know I should be as good as snoring soundly by this time but probably due to the excess energy (after doing all that walking and dodging crazy last-minute-Christmas-shoppers at the mall earlier) I have left in me, I just  couldn't get myself to sleep. For some reason, I feel so high. KIDDING! I don't feel sleepy at all! To tell you the truth, my eyes are not even that heavy at all, though my body aches already.


ANyway, I should try to force myself to sleep now or forever regret the day I slept at my own Christmas party. I am looking forward to this day since I don't know when...I wish it would go beyond my expectations and make me feel happy for the rest of the break!!! HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! God bless you all!!!


P.S. Thank you Lord for all the food that I ate today! HAHA! for all the things you allowed me to buy and for the ALL THE LOVE around me! I wish everyone would be happy on your special day!! I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!! 

cartoon frenzy=reminiscing

So here's the thing, FB's been dominated by cartoon heroes of all time... it's wild, crazy and it takes us a "few" years back! This is so exciting.. It's as exciting as what I had in mind since a few minutes ago. I was planning on maintaining privacy on this blog from now on. HOW? I was thinking, instead of giving away personal information such as real names of people, places and whatever has PROPER nouns on them, I would be substituting code names for them. This idea was inspired by her although I'm not sure if the names of her family or just his husband are their real names or not... but even so, I was still fascinated by the idea and starting now onwards, I shall be called the great MONSTER SIOMAI!! HAHAHA! 

This is sick, i'm sorry, but I just want to maintain weirdness and privacy over here and here at my other blog.

So that's it for now....

CIAO!

P.S. this is how FB looks right now-na-na...

P.S. part II: this is my 4th and last post for the day... PROMISE!

scaredy-cat-cat-cat meow!

I'm a big scaredy-cat, fearer of the unknown, coward, whatever you may want to call it. I fear almost anything from stray dogs to domesticated ones, to snakes and all types of reptiles and animals alike, to ghosts, to whatever I imagine's under my bed at night to the creepy sound of our dorm room's blinds smashing to the window to homeless people... I could go on and on, but I'd like to finish this entry in at least 15 minutes. But apart from those concrete and tangible, mostly nonsensical fears that I have, I also fear for imaginary situations I picture myself in, some time in the future. Shempre etong entry na to, may pinaghuhugutan... While browsing through celeb tweets, I found THIS:

Though I'm pretty sure (I hope so) I won't work as a maid (not that I am degrading them, I do have so much respect for them and their job), I know that one day, I will work as a regular employee too just as this woman did, and I know that one way or another, I may face difficulties/problems regarding my own employer as well. What scares me really is that one day, I may find myself in a sticky situation which I may not be prepared for. As much as I'd like to think that the world is an idealistic place as it is, I know that this is not true. People die of hunger whilst others live indifferently in luxury. Others work 3 jobs for sustenance while others need not work a day in their lives. In short, the world and life itself are not fair. Like in this case of the Pinay maid, she was accused of theft and rude behavior by her employer who is a member of the British royal family and got sacked unfairly. This is just one out of hundreds or even thousands of cases of people abused by their own employers. This fellow Pinay is even lucky she was not physically abused nor sentenced to death nor wrongly convicted and sent to jail. 

In a way, I feel sympathetic for this woman since I also dream of working abroad. If I'm not too careful, I may (knock knock on wood) be in this woman's shoes may it be because of my own fault or not. So to cut this entry short, I am just glad she got justice on her side and won the case against her employer. 

May this serve as a reminder that in the face of the many challenges in our lives, may we always find courage and faith to stand up for ourselves and our rights as human beings. and...May all of our kababayans abroad who gave up a lot just to be able to send good food on their families' tables be blessed and protected by God always. May all of our kababayans who wish to work abroad like I do, may find strength to withstand all hardships, fears and trials they may face in the future... 

SUCCESS

I keep on thinking of myself as a huge failure. I am a failure as a student, daughter, friend, best friend, Catholic and whatever else you could possibly think of. It's true that many of us may think in the same way (for various reasons) but not in the same level ('coz we go through different problems and issues). Like say for example, I may be too hard on myself for being such a lazy, careless student whereas others may be beating themselves up for not getting a certain quiz perfect. In a way, even though we may all think of ourselves as losers, I still feel like I am on the lowest rank of all losers in the world. As I've said before, it's hard to keep up with people I don't level with, but I try to, as much as I can and want, to squeeze every juice of knowledge and wisdom I still have left in my brain in order to get by. But sometimes (or most of the time rather), I just want to give up. Like I don't care anymore whatever they want to think about me or however they see me as (through my performance in school) because in the end, I keep telling myself that I would find something amazing to do after I finish school. I keep dreaming that one day, I'll find that job that's perfect enough for me, for my interest and for my passion. It doesn't necessarily have something to do with the course I'm taking up right now, however, if that's what God has planned for me to do, then what reason do I have to make to get out of it, right?

In as much as I'd like to keep going, ranting about how much of a big loser I am (bigger than the biggest loser on tv! cornets!), I still have this ounce of inner strength and faith in myself that I am the opposite of everything I just said above... meaning, I am a WINNER! Even though I know (and I admit, <--yehes humble!) that I am not as smart as the smartest person in our batch, I know I have my own strengths, talents and abilities that no one else can take away from me (unless I allow them to). So for now, I guess, I have to maximize these abilities and the time (privilege!) that we were provided with in order to make the most out of the last 3 months (more or less) that we have left before graduation!

So I pray to God that whatever happens, may I be ready to face and be responsible for whatever price/consequence or reward it entails. May I end up crying in full tears of joy at the end of this journey! And may you, yes you who's taking time to read this may learn the value of hardwork in order for you to avoid committing the same mistakes I did! So, GOD BLESS US ALL! Thank you Lord for the successful report we had! LOVES IT!

and for my final words...

DARNA! ENOUGH SAID!

photos from HEARTHEARTHEART

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY

I was kinda hoping that today's going to be such a downer like yesterday. Fortunately, I'm too much of a happy person (like all of my RBC's have happy faces on them and they flow through my body and bring happiness to my whole being) that I don't get upset that long. Yesterday, I was so emotional  that I had those moments staring blankly at the ceiling and kept thinking and rethinking of whatever the hell I did yesterday (see previous post), but since I was able to let it out (by praying and sharing it to some stranger), I do feel so much better right now. I may really have a bipolar disorder for having such extreme emotions shift from one to another. But I think that being able to express it through blogging and praying is more than a hundred notches higher than beating myself up or keeping everything to myself to pile up and explode later. 

ANywhooo, I am glad that I've come to terms with the fact that I will never ever stop committing mistakes in this lifetime and boy am I even happier that I have gotten past that stage of depression and went straight to acceptance phase. Now, I am nothing like what I've been yesterday. I was able to laugh at myself again and have moved on. Finally. Thank God and for my friends and for myself. Still, I wanna graduate already and get this over with! drama ko talaga, i love it.

FAILLLLLLLure

I had been preparing for this major major report for almost the whole of the remaining days of the sembreak after we passed our thesis last Nov. 4. I was pretty much engaged those last few days after All Saints' Day and before classes resumed last Nov. 10 that I have literally been up working my head off through several straight days and nights, with occasional pee breaks and privileged meals. I have never been so engrossed in such a schoolwork like this in my whole life and to think that final revisions for thesis and the thesis defense itself were only days ahead after classes resume. So to cut the long story short, I had yet made my biggest mistake and failure today as I have literally poured everything I have worked hard for for weeks down that freaking drain!! I had not only made a fool of myself, but I also proved to everyone in class today that I am such a stupid, nonsensical, trying hard student whose much better off called (whatever synonym of failure you have in mind right now). 

Anyway, I'm glad that we're almost halfway through. I really, really need a break and I need to catch up on a much needed sleep! Thank God tomorrow's enrichment schedule is only up to 12 noon (but I doubt that there's no catch to it, so I much brace myself for whatever that is going to be).

Never lose hope...

You know, I never would have thought that there will come a time in my life that I would feel depressed as I am these past days, that I am not smart enough. It would have been much more acceptable for me to feel down for not being as pretty or as fashionable as the rich and the famous, but never for the fact that I am not as mentally gifted as the others. It's not that I don't want to be smart at all because I do, but not to the extent of me being so grade conscious and becoming either vain or bitter that I am much more better or worse than the others. And who are these "others" that I keep talking about? Well, It is them who have been pressuring me for the past 4 years I've been in college (rather, 3 and a half years). 

Sometimes, being a mediocre or an average person won't keep you on the safe zone all the time. Sometimes, average people can and will try to keep up with the superior people and by the time they are in the midst of a battle, they'd feel exhausted and come to a point wherein they lose hope and surrender. Good thing this average person that I am does not give up that easily. Thanks to another good thing I call faith. It's really a blessing for me to have been a Catholic, with a deep enough faith in the Lord and a strong support system because I would never have survived this path I've chosen to take if not for them. So I thank you Lord, my friends and family for not giving up on me. Somehow, I've always thought that in the end, everything will fall where they rightfully belong and I cannot wait for that to happen! So, so much for the emo days, the crazy and wild me is back and kicking! Hopefully the emo days won't come back, not until they are about lovelife naa. echos! good night everyone!  Don't give up on life coz God will not give up on YOU!

REVENGE!

Just so you know, you worthless groupmate... ANG HARSH! (baka makarma)... nonetheless, I still hate you. How I wish I could put you through the same perils and adversities I've been through yesterday!! DRAMA QUEEN?!?! NAKOOOO God bless you na lang talagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... GRRRRR!!!!!!

DONE-DONE-DONE-DONE!!!

Hey you! YES YOU, dayum you thesis! We are so through! WE ARE OVER!! I can't believe I finally made it through the rain!! Kahit wala pang defense... GRABE intense.

I only slept for 4 hours yesterday!

FROM 2am-5:41 am the next day!! INTENSE!

THANK YOU PO LORD!!!!!!!! 

Please bless our thesis!!!

HUMILITY

Yesterday, the priest talked about the real meaning of humility in light of the Gospel reading about the Pharisee and the tax collector. He said that the difference between a humble person and someone who pretends to be one is that the former knows how to pray, and when he prays, he begs forgiveness of the Father.

You know, if you read the Gospel reading again, you'll see that the Pharisee, though proud as he is, he was actually praying to God, but notice the difference between his prayer and that of the tax collector...

Pharisee's prayer:

`God, I thank thee that I am not like other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week, I give tithes of all that I get.'

Tax collector's prayer:

`God, be merciful to me a sinner!'

The pharisee's prayer wasn't a real one. He was so proud that he was boasting of himself, not realizing that as he spoke to God, he was humiliating not the extortioners, the unjust, the adulterers nor the tax collector, but himself. He did not realize that the fact that he too was a sinner just like them, just like the rest of us and he couldn't admit it to himself, more especially to God...and that's the very reason why a proud person cannot really pray like that of a humble man. 

So today, as you pray before you sleep, be humble enough to admit all your wrongdoings and mistakes as I will too. There's a reason why it is customary to kneel when praying because the very act of praying is an act of humility. No proud person prays to God and ask for forgiveness or even for help because he thinks that he can do anything without the help of the Father. Therefore, as a sinner, I kneel down and bow my head before God and ask for the very same thing that the tax collector asked from God....His mercy.

One more thing our priest told us yesterday is that in times of trouble or tragedy, the very prayer that can easily be recalled yet in the same way, redemptive is...

`God, be merciful to me a sinner!'

"every one who exalts himself will be humbled, but he who humbles himself will be exalted"

Classes are what?!?!??!

i was supposed to post this yesterday when i got home, unfortunately, globe boradband's been acting up again...


Today I woke up at around 3:30, panicking because I need to be in school by 8 am for our Psychiatric Nursing enrichment classes (on our first week of sembreak, which sucks bigtime). I needed to wake up earlier because I was at home and not at my dorm (which is walking distance away from school), and rain was pouring (because signal #1 sa metro), so I presumed that it was going to be tough commuting back to school. Good thing my parents (as usual) drove us (Kat and I) to school this morning. We left at around 5:30 with German franks and Sky Flakes on hand. We had to eat on the way to school since matatraffic kami pag later than 5:30 pa kami umalis.

I got to school at around 6:10 (at ngayon ko lang narealize, woah ambilis!). Lied down for about 30 minutes (or so). Did #2 (if you know what i mean!). Then went back to lying down. At around 7:30, I decided to fix my hair and wash my face and brush my teeth (kasi kumain pa sa sasakyan) since may pasok pa rin. Quarter to 8, I was walking to school. 8:20, the proctor entered. By 9:30 ata, we had our break. Ate a hotdog and champorado. By 11 am, people were becoming restless (again), then people started making a fuss somewhere in front. SUspended na raw kasi yung class! So our president stood up and told the proctor. She asked if he could check and confeeeeerm at the office. By 12 noon, enrichment class was GONE BABY GONE!

I went home at 1pm. Slept through the whole bus ride going home. Jarred and slammed my head (potek kada gising ko feeling ko nakatingin yung katabi nung katabi ko sa bus kasi natutulog rin yung katabi ko eh) a couple of times by the bus window(!) before finally reaching ortigas extension....I'm HOME!

Busy and tiring day! Now I need to finish a LOT of stuff for our 1st thesis draft due the day after tomorrow. So there shall be no sleeping (again for me) tonight! God bless our souls!

when to say no...

             People always say that you'll never find true friends in college. I doubted that before, but now, I'm not so sure anymore. I used to be so trusting. Whenever I meet new people, and find them amusing or too kind, I would never think twice whether to befriend them or not; but things change, even my ability to trust people around me. 

          When we had our self awareness activity before we had our duty (or in my case, after our rotation) in NCMH, I admitted to my rlemates that I have trust issues, and in connection with that, I also am very paranoid. It's not that people don't give me a reason to trust them, it's just that most of the time, I find myself thinking that that "incident" (a.k.a. backstabbing) back in high school will happen again, and to think that that backstabber has been a friend of mine for years. I just want to be more careful by not trusting anyone too soon and too much. it's not like I can't be friends with people without having to give my full trust in them. They can't blame me because they haven't been through what I've been through and once that trust has already been broken, you cannot bring it back to the way it was before. Ika nga ng parokya ni edgar, parang tsokolate lang yan na kapag nasira at natunaw na, hindi mo na maibabalik sa dati.

             Aside from that, I also keep doubting my friends' loyalty and genuineness towards me. There are times when I really feel that they're really there for me, but somehow, I also feel that there are times that these people just need to use me (you know, being the one that can be taken for granted so easily) and to make fun of me. Again, they can't blame me for these thoughts I have against them since they are the ones who give me countless reasons to doubt the friendship that we share (and this is not simply just about the jokes... i've long accepted reality at hindi ako ganun kababaw).

             So how is my entry title connected to all of this? Simple. Aside from being paranoid and being miss-trust-no-one, I am also the passive type of person. At kapag sinabing passive, passive talaga. At the age of 20, you'd think that I should've become the assertive type, or the one with a strong personality, especially when majority of the people in my class are one or two years younger than me. But sadly, I remained as passive and as shy as I have been ever since I was young. Being the paranoid person that I am, I was thinking too deeply na naman kanina. It happens all the time, especially when I am left alone to rot, like tonight. Immersed in my deep and dark thoughts, naisip ko, why do I let people bully me all the time? It's not as if I enjoy it as much as they do. Somehow, I also get tired, even if "they" do not. Minsan pa, there are people who I don't feel like bullying me, kasi minsan iba silang mag joke. May mga tao rin naman na natutuwa rin ako pag jinojoke ako. So I thought, why would I let them keep on bullying me kung ayaw ko na? These people weren't even born when I was born (and this is not to be taken as a joke). Seriously though, sometimes, I just feel bad about the person I turned out to be. Minsan nakakadepress na I turned out to be other people's laughingstock and I permit them to. Pero minsan din naman, natutuwa rin ako and I don't deny that. Ayoko lang talagang forever na lang akong ganito. 

           Anyway, to cut this long entry short, I would just want to share one more little thing about me. I realized that I'm also the type of person who won't ever forget the BAD things that people do to me. So I am not so sure if forgiving without forgetting is counted as forgiving at all. Well, I already know the answer to that so why still ask? Anyhow, I am glad and relieved to finally let this one out. I needed that. Ipagdadasal ko na lang ang sarili ko at ang mga taong kasangkot dito. God bless us all! Good night!

life's a big paradox

One moment you're happy, then all of a sudden, something comes along and bursts that small bubble of happiness. Though the perfect reason and explanation i can think of for this is the need for balance (something good is balanced by something not so good), it might not be true for God and for some people who are 100% OPTIMIST. Shempre for them, when something bad comes their way, iisipin nila na it's probably just a way to test their faith in the Lord. Pero if you're like me, someone who worries, panics and seems to be tired all the time, iisipin mo na it's punishment for all the things you did or did not do. Good thing, Mara, one of my dearest college friends reminded me that God never punishes anyone. It's just a matter of interpreting all the things, good or bad in a positive way. So it got me thinking, "oonga noh?". One way or another, we all face our own problems everyday. Some people may seem to have none, when deep inside mas mabigat pa yung dinadala nilang problema, but they manage to remain as lighthearted, bubbly and happy even so. How on earth do they do that? SIMPLE, just have FAITH and everything will fall into place. 

It's simple yet It's tough, I know, another paradox right? and I know exactly how that one feels kasi I'm still there and doing my best to do just that. Everyday I try to keep a light mood and happy face 'coz no matter what, I know my problems will never go away. Echos na lang mga probs mo to the side noh. Until that day comes when I breathe my last breath, my problems will keep on coming. So ano pa bang gagawin ko diba? Magpakasaya ka na lang. 

From this day on (kasi if not now, kelan pa?) I'll try to be MORE positive in life. Emphasis on the word MORE, since I always say and think of myself as someone with a positive outlook in life. SO maybe I should try living up to what I believe in and what I stand up for. Kasi ayoko namang paradoxical na nga yung buhay ko, pati ba naman yung words and actions ko contradictory pa rin diba? 

Anyway, this post wasn't supposed to end this way. It wasn't even supposed to be about this, coz it was about something else (labo). Pero yun, I should know that life is FUN, EXCITING and CRAZY and it wouldn't be if it wasn't for all of these paradoxical things I complain about. So there. pointless entry na naman! 


Reminder for myself: Just be happy (like you always are). Be with funny yet good-hearted people. Lastly, just have FAITH! 


P.S. the homily today is about having FAITH. So appropriate, I love it!


Have a great MONDAY you guys! God bless you all!

there's a reason why you can't fight that feeling any longer...

and it's not love, i'm telling you. why on earth am I doing something I shouldn't be doing? Anyway, as much as I want to hate the world for all the sadness, frustrations, sufferings, occasional loneliness and all the craziness it brings, I still can't deny the fact that it also gives me all the best feelings in the world. It gives you the feeling of magic and happiness, that heart-stopping feeling of first loves, of what-ifs and what-nots. Aside from the feeling of unfailing laughtrips with family and friends, you also experience the pure love every single moment brings, every single day of this life. 

I want to feel inspired, to feel wonderful, to feel fine, but most of all, I want to feel perfect even though in reality, I'm just a simple, shallow and crazy hopeless-romantic waiting for her chance to experience all the magical feelings they say are true in fairy tale books... I want to be able to experience in my heart, mind and soul the very feeling Claire Danes' character, Yvaine felt in the movie, Stardust....

I could go on and on, but the time won't allow me anymore to... so to end this pointless entry, I would like to share this again and again and again. I've shared this on my previous blog and I will share it here to you again... my favorite line from one of my most favorite movies of all time....

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine. "

-Yvaine, Stardust, 2007

worst feeling ever...

You know what's the worst feeling ever? Having a full stomach that feels like food's at the level of your throat ready to be thrown up anytime.. That's exactly how i'm feeling right now. My roommate, Caks and I went to the famed Dapitan square to have dinner and we ended up buying extra servings of rice, kare-kare and steamed fish. I never thought I would end up almost not being able to stand up on both feet and almost close to fainting.

And as if that's not bad enough, I fought with one of my rlemates whom I've grown close with over the semester, again. I honestly didn't think it would hurt her that much that I have sort of and slightly dissed the show she was enthusiastically sharing with us this morning. I was probably being my insensitive self again said the wrong things carelessly. What's worse is that she overheard me telling off my seatmates rudely and jokingly as to why they were bullying me again. Thinking that it was her I was being rude at, she made a sooper scary comment. Anyway, I apologized before we parted ways. I'm not sure though if she accepted it. I wasn't really expecting her to be mad at me like this. It was yet another shallow thing to be this mad at a person, but then again, who am I to say this right? 

As much as I would want to dwell on it and be depressed again, I don't want to because I don't want to ruin my day because of just one person. There are way too many other things that I need to think about and if she doesn't forgive me, then it's her decision and I can't force her to forgive me if she doesn't want to. Besides, I am so tired of people being so awfully sensitive these past weeks. I am so tired of getting on people's nerves all the time. I am tired of accidentally being other people's bagsakan ng problema or init ng ulo though I can't blame them if we're all a bit pressured with all the schoolwork, not to mention the personal dilemmas and the THESIS that needs accomplishing before the semestral break. 

SO Lord, thank you for this day. Thank you for the FOOD we ate. thank you for the people I've hurt today. Without them, I wouldn't have learned another valuable lesson for today. Hopefully I become more sensitive to the people around me, even though they don't always do the same for me.... God bless us all.

lobotommeeeeeekk!

Earlier, I was checking out movie trailers like Unbreakable (M. Night Shyamalan), Unstoppable, Despicable Me, One flew over The Cuckoo's Nest etc. The last one yielded a related video documentary about the infamous lobotomist, Walter Freeman. 

Yes, you read that right. INFAMOUS. According to the documentary, he specialized on this procedure only after a week of mastering it. Walter's son elaborated that during the very first time the surgery was done, an icepick was inserted into the patient's eye socket and jammed with a hammer into the skull and wiggled into the patient's brain. The patients develop black eyes after the procedure.

I watched the whole thing and I learned that even Walter's co-surgeons passed out if they didn't threw up during the procedure. I was freaked out while watching the actual videos of his surgeries. It was so intense, I was covering a part of my eye during the latter part of the video. You can see it for yourself and learn about the wonderful world of Psychiatry!

Also, at the beginning of the video, you will see the nurse prepping the very first patient to undergo lobotomy under Dr. Walter and how she underwent ECT or Electroconvulsive Therapy (wherein they introduce around 70-100 volts of electricity into the patient's head to induce a therapeutic grand mal or tonic clonic seizure).

I got curious as to what the movie, One flew over the cuckoo's nest was all about since my groupmates watched the film on one duty day we missed because we had our own completion duty at Fabella Hospital. It was the last day of our NCMH affiliation duty and it was a film viewing day. 

Tomorrow will be the start of our last shift for this semester. I will be missing NCMH and our cab trips to Mandaluyong and the once-in-a-lifetime experience we had there. It was definitely a different learning experience for me and the rest of my groupmates. This last shift for the semester, my best friend, Nikki will be assigned to the same Pavilion we were assigned to (Acute ward). Hopefully she enjoys the experience as much as I did. 

P.S. This is the docu. just the sound of the background music gives me the creeps...

i bumped my head into one of someone's ceiling beams today...

Last night, my high school friends met up at galle to celebrate JUCI's 21st birthday! My thesismates and I extended our meeting time up until around 6:30 in the evening, so I had no choice but to run haggardly along lacson street to UST catwalk to meet up with Nikki, before we took the LRt to gateway. Then we took a fun cab ride to galle (fun because the cab's engine kept dying atop the flyover at Edsa Shrine).

The dinner was short, crazy but nevertheless, FUN! I love it. Though we only had at least an hour to get together, I'm glad that I we still managed to spend time together, with no one missing! I'm also glad that though it is almost impossible to squeeze in any fun UBE moments in between our hectic schedules, we still manage to do so, out of love for one another. MUSHY but it's true. (you cannot imagine what great measures and stunts we pulled off just so we could arrive before the mall closed and got Juci disappointed!).

Anyway, Juci, the birthday girl, treated us at Burgoo and I loved everything (shempre ako pa! lahat naman gusto ng sikmura ko lalo na't gutom!) From the chicken appetizer with blue cheese dip, veggie roll, CHEESY MASHED POTATO, pizza and seafood pasta! I told you I loved everything. Just naming them makes my mouth water!! Meeting time was 6pm ata, we arrived at around 9:30 naaa coz we (Nik, Jan and I) had to run to NBS pa to buy balloons!! We even helped out with the balloon sticks just so we could finish faster. (gosh bakit ganito ako mag-talk ngayon?).

Boy, am I glad that though we only had more or less an hour to be together, we were still able to have fun and get loud, wild and crazy! 


Last time I posted birthday pictures here was at Chris's place last July. I wonder where we'll be on Jan's Birthday. I really wonder how we're gonna celebrate hers when she's in Dumaguete!! oh nooo!

At around 45 minutes past 9, Juci suddenly realized that she still hasn't claimed her stuff at the package counter. The mall closes at 9pm! So we had to get those at the employee's entrance behind the mall. At around 10 pm, aside from a few employees, the four of us (because Chris had to go ahead) walked our way out of the almost empty mall. 

HAD a SWELL TIME YESTERDAY! I love my friends soooo much!

Today, I had to wake up as early as 6 am to text our study's pilot participants and leave for school at around 7:30 am. Had a quick breakfast with my family and checked facebook before I finally took the G-liner. An hour and a half later, I was preparing the papers needed for the pilot study. At around 1 pm, we're done. Will go back to them tomorrow before our duty starts at 12 noon!

Tonight, I have tons of stuff to study! Hopefully I won't go to school unarmed tomorrow! I need to stay awake for the rest of the night. Will listen to DJ Tom Alvarez later!!

P.S., I read one of Paolo Coelho's tweets earlier and through him, I learned about the story of the Fisherman and the Businessman. To tell you the truth, I needed that! It was very timely of Paolo (yehes, first name basis) to tweet that, now that I am almost through with college and I have no idea what to do next! Hopefully, you guys get to read it and be inspired as well! 

Good night! Don't let the bed bugs bite! Toodles!

hear ye, hear ye!

The semester's about to end...

Ex-batchmates from lasalle are about to graduate... some already have... and yet here I am, still clueless as to what I have to do for our thesis to finally push through...

that does sound a little bit poetic, doesn't it? But it sort of just came out as I am slowly typing this. A few hours earlier, I read and re-read my rlemate's blog. She has finally updated after 4 months. Then, I stumbled upon an entry of ala paredes' latest entry about people being judgmental and all. Then after that, I started looking for other celebrity blogs that I used to visit before. Lo and behold, they've all updated their blogs as well. I also visited some of my ex-batchmates' blogs, thus the reason for my reminiscent and emo intro...

This week is the beginning of an end. Quite ironic and unoriginal (i got this from one of laguna beach's episode titles), this is, but it's the truth. Slowly, the semester's coming to an end. The days might have seem long and tiring, but when I come to think of it, I would never have thought that 3 months have already come to pass. I always say and think at the beginning of every scheduled hospital shift, "this is going to be a long one...", but I would always take whatever I said back in the end saying otherwise.

I never even realized that the final grading period has come if it wasn't for my etar professor who acknowledged that very fact! I was caught up with all the pressures in school that I often get disoriented with time (which isn't a good sign at all). Suddenly, I was awakened by the fact that the monthly and preliminary grading periods have passed by like a breeze and This FINAL grading period is also my last chance to make up for what I have lost. I never thought that time would fly this fast. At the beginning of the school year, I could still remember having high quiz grades, but now, I have slowly been taken aback by my performance. Well, not really. I was expecting this to happen. Hopefully, I can still change that and won't let myself fall down in vain. I should try to work as hard as I can to reach my goals, this time! I can still do this! I just have to have faith and strive HARDER!!!

please Lord, Help us all! 

rle love

This is my rle. we've been together since second year. all of our surnames end in M. we love making fun of each other and almost anything. we are like toddlers most of the time. we love playing mind games like PINOY HENYO and ROGER-DOUBLE CROSSER! we also like playing pointless games like connect-disconnect and polar bear! we love singing and dancing to charice's pyramid and jbieber's baby!

last saturday, we had our grad picture taking. and this is how it ended up. SPLENDID!

i can't believe i'm actually graduating in 7 months! wish me luck! have a great day!

RESTDAY SATURDAY!!!!

I was sooooo exhausted the whole week of exam week so I am 100% sure I can rest even for just a couple of hours. Saturday, July 24 was the last day of our first shift (which was somehow a rest shift). It was Case presentation + Evaluation exam all packed into a half day. Then, I had to go canvass invitation prices in Central Market (going to Quiapo) before I had my first meal of the day (around 4pm) and ate 2 orders of a cheaper version of Mongolian noodles. Before that I washed my underwear and let them drip dry inside our dorm room (I wonder what my roommates will say about that). 5pm, I got a text from Nikki (whom I was waiting for) saying she had to go to a meeting with her thesis-mates and told me to go ahead. So i went to Quiapo and took the bus home. 

Around 7-8pm, I got off the bus and walked towards the apartment, saw my parents walking after parking the car. I was sooo tired, I didn't eat dinner and to add to that, I yelled at my mother. The next day, they didn't wake me up while they started chowing down on breakfast (how funny). Then I finally got up and ate chicken longganisa!! Made up with my mother (jokingly) and went to mass after bathing. 

SOOOO right now, I'm still up maybe because I slept for so long, I have reserved energy for blogging! Made my BNP paper, pissed our class president, started a trending thread on Fb with my girl-rlemates about what to wear on wednesday and the wednesday after that and the wednesday after that. so far, we all decided to wear colored jeans for a scary-funny reason. Some don't have so I don't think we can all wear a pair. Mama Bought A nice pair of oversized, black "Jessica"-jelly shoes with a purple ribbon (i can change to other colored ribbons) and a nice bag organizer from a budding brand from SM marikina dept store called GRAB for my roommate, Caks. 

It was a fun day! I LOVE SUNDAYS, coz sundays are family days!!!!! I LOVE my family! Thank God for them, for this day, and for this life!! I love you!

P.S. I had my first ever haircut since late last year? All those months I've waited to make my hair long were wasted! But I'm glad the girl asked if I wanted side-swept bangs (which was a first).  So thank God for that as well!

hair isn't that short, but still, I miss my longer, frizzy hair!

my legs look sooper skinny here. exagg.. ganito na pinayat ko over the exam week? and

btw, those are the shoes (for baha sa uste) mama bought kanina!

top from forever21 (borrowed from kat, as usual)

God bless you all! Hope you had a fun day too!!! Good night! shooping day with barkada on aug7!! can't wait!!