it's always been a dream of mine to....

be a film maker... ever since I discovered the joy of editing videos back in high school. I made videos and gave it to friends as gifts for their birthday. I made our school trips more memorable by "immortalizing" them in videos. I made videos of special family gatherings and gave a copy to my relatives so they can relive these celebrations and enjoy them as much. 

Then came college. My classmates and rlemates and even professors (i think) were also amazed by what I can do. I never used windows moviemaker so most of them were surprised to see a different set of effects, transitions etc, but mostly, I think they were amused by the wit and humor I like to put into those projects. As expected, I became the semi-permanent video editor for most of our projects all throughout college. There were times that I even had to direct the films myself! Hindi naman sa pagbubuhat ng bangko pero I could not deny the fact that I enjoyed watching those videos as well because I made sure that those did not only meet the objectives of the project, but also made people interested and amused. 

True enough, I succeeded in creating those projects. I cannot explain the joy and fulfillment I felt when we watched those videos in class. When you hear people laughing hard, applauding, crying out a few "Yes namans" and "woohoos", you cannot ask for more, but thank God instead na natapos mong i-edit yun the night before. HAHA!

Though I said I did well and succeeded in doing all the dirty work, it doesn't necessarily mean that it was pure happiness that I felt while making those. I experienced not sleeping at all just to finish editing in time. I cried a lot and bargained for more time from God. I even had to absent myself from morning classes, onde day and had my parents bring me to school in time for the film showing (last period ata of that day). There was even a time when I had to talk to our professor because I literally was finishing a video on the class period when it was about to be shown. Those were the most anxiety-provoking, distressing and most horrifying days of my life, but I will never exchange those moments for anything much less because I learned a lot and to tell you again, I felt rewarded and fulfilled every single time. Of course, I wouldn't have learned moviemaking and photoshop if it weren't for my truly talented father, my idol (ibang entry ko na lang i f feature si itay! and other family members...).

After graduation, people will talk a lot about their plans and what's up ahead for them and sure there were some who wanted to try something different, something unrelated to the course we've taken. One of those was me. 4 years ago, I would've taken film making in UP but I chose a science-related course instead. I was being more practical and realistic than being idealistic. I was thinking that I would be more successful if I was a nurse than if I made indie films or if I followed in the footsteps of my father, being an artist. Since I wasn't as talented as my father, and since I passed the entrance exam and interview in UST for my first choice which was nursing, I considered it one of my dreams come true. No one really forced me to take up this course but myself and I'm glad I did because I learned a lot and I loved it even if most times I almost wanted to give up. So four years later, I found people who were having the same dilemma I have and I'm glad that I am not the only one who feels like doing a whole lot of other things in life other than the path we've chosen. I wanted to study again. I wanted to take up FINE ARTS and FILM MAKING in UP if time and my parents would forbid me to. I wanted to take Culinary classes and Creative Writing classes. I wanted to be a photographer, travel blogger, food blogger. I wanted to design my own clothes (inspired by the TV shows I watch), I wanted to go sky diving, bungee-jumping, surfing, wakeboarding, snow-boarding and a lot of other extreme sports. I wanted to jump off a cliff. I wanted to dive. I wanted to do all those things and I still want to and I know I can if only I'd give it a try. But as for now, I know what I have to do and I am not regretful of the decisions I made in the past. I love my life and I know someday, I will be able to do all of these. 

OPS di pa tapos.... haha!! This morning, a college batchmate posted a link on FB and just reading the title and seeing familiar faces such as TADO, ERNING, RAMON, JUN and RA (whom I have been looking up to ever since STRANGEBREW days pa lang), I did not hesitate and watched it immediately. True enough, it was REALLLY ENTERTAINING but more importantly, very HELPFUL as well. Even though they made it look like a big joke, it wasn't because it was real and I know that these people are really geniuses when it comes to indie film making. This is why I wanted to take up FILM MAKING in UP SOOOO BAD, because I wanted to meet Ramon Bautista (BIG FAN OF STRANGEBREW and BREWRATS radio show) and because I wanted to learn more about this ART. I even wanted to make my own strangebrew back when I was younger! That's how inspired I was when watching that show. It seemed so pointless back then, but looking back, I realized that they were truly brilliant people. HANDS DOWN to all of them!

So here are RAMON, TADO, JUN, ERNING, RA and LOURD in WORD OF THE LOURD!! ENJOY and make sure you LEARN a lot!